One year ago today was the most terrifying day of my life. I was filled with gut-wrenching fear after a mammogram & ultrasound when the radiologist pretty much told me I had breast cancer and it didn't look good. He said he was "scared for me" and wished me the best of luck. It was horrible and I was alone. It took all the strength I had to drive home that afternoon. All my other experiences this past year pale in comparison to that one day. The news was so shocking and the dr seemed so certain. He was right. Nine days later I was officially diagnosed by my surgeon after he had biopsy results.
It's interesting that today is Ash Wednesday...the beginning of Lent & Jesus' journey in the desert. I, too, am embarking upon a new journey of survivorship. In some ways it's more difficult than the treatment journey.....worrying & wondering what will come next. The grace of God and the love of my friends & family have given me so much strength. But there are certainly days when I have doubts about my future. There is good in everyday and that's what keeps me going and living big. Finding that little shimmer of light in the darkness is uplifting. I choose to focus on the light. But it's within the darkness that we truly learn who we are. I've learned a lot this past year.
Tomorrow will be 2 weeks after my hysterectomy. I'm feeling better everyday.....but still lacking my normal energy. I'll get there.....praying for patience & strength.
No matter what desert you are journeying through, I wish you faith, strength and patience.
Many blessings, srb
You are going to have many, many, many wonderful fun filled years ahead of you---that's what I believe! Have no doubts and live big! xo always, Lisa
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